You know…I’ve been doing some self reflection lately. Why am I procrastinator? Why don’t I keep up a blog I love? I think the answer is I feel inadequate. I’m not sure what I have to add to the mommy bloggingsphere…or the homeschool blogging sphere. Ya know? There are SO many great blogs out there on these topics I”m kind of like uhm.. yeah. I know I’m a good mom and I think I’m a pretty good writer/blogger (funny, engaging, right? right?!) so what the heck is my problem?
I don’t KNOW! I said I’m a good mom but dude(ette). I read these other blogs and I’m like really? How do these chicks find the time/energy/motivation to do all the stuff they do? AND they look good? and their kids are dressed in outfit things? I’m just not that person. My kids have clothes on…but not matching cutesie clothes with shoes that go with each specific outfit. I take showers (most days) but I only put makeup on once or twice a monthish. I homeschool my kids…but I’m kind of halfarsed about it lately. Speaking of halfarsed, I cuss like a sailor. Not around my kids because you know… I don’t want THEM doing it (hypocrisy is part of motherhood) but I do. and then I get on here to blog and I have to edit it because I know the other mommy bloggers would not approve. Because I’m inadequate. Oh and I don’t take awesome pictures of how great I am at the stuff I’m great at. You know, like being sarcastic. Because how do you take a picture of that?
Yeah I know there are rebel mommy bloggers out there who glory in how lazy, hot, whatever they are but I don’t do that either. I just don’t know. I DON”T KNOW! Hmm…maybe I shouldn’t blog when I’m all PMSy? Thought I’d share because I’m trying to find my groove (still, this is such an epic struggle). So yeah. I’m going to go and be inadequate now.
<3 Birdie
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You’d be surprised at how not inadequate you are… Just when you think that other people’s lives are better…it’d surprise you how they are not. Those kids you see that are in the cutsie clothes… yeah. That’s probably it. Or the blogs that look like mom of the year…yep – house is probably a mess. You know me…. it may all look like sunshine on the outside but it’s all darkness on the inside. LOL
Now get back to work before I kick your ass……How’s that for your pep talk…now shut it..
I love you bunches <3
I hear you! My blog has mostly been neglected over the last couple years but I resolve to resurrect it! I don’t have tons of cute pictures and sometimes I think our school is downright boring compared to others with all their plethora of projects, but it works for us.
I think I might be resolving to pay attention to my blog as well.